TUESDAY

i was told today that i have a modest dream. i kind of liked it.

i have a modest dream. mmm.

its HOT

i stuffed my face with green tea ice cream hoping it would cool me down.

IT DIDN'T WORK

must turn on A.C.

100 fucking degrees.

BURDAY WEEKEND

4:45 am - alarm goes on.
5:00am - stumbling out the door
5:27 am - get to milbrae

SEE BIRTHDAY BOY!

start driving.

somewhere on the i 5 we did the dirty, while tractor man so ryans bum. nikki is no longer innocent.

get to disney by 12:30

ride space mountain, buzz lightyear, its a small world.

get home, go to the pool mmmmmmmm

mmm yeah

ordered in room service , ahi tuna and filet mignon, calamari, awesome fries and bubbly.. mm wonderful wonderful amazing night.

7:30am - morning sex. 1:00pm i met rys friend marc then we headed to newport beach! dinner at balasic (quaint, warm, cute, romantic french rest.) home more awesome time spent together. mmmmmm TODAY - went up to see ry, we had a shit tonz of jack in the box.. ultimate cheeseburger hmmm tomorrow beach time!

TUESDAY

TUESDAY - def. the day to blog.

EERANDDSSS TMRW! dammmmmmm

9 am - Professor time
10 am- get oil changed.
10:30 am work on project with naghmeh
12 pm eat easy mac
3 pm finish project
3 30 get ready to leave
4pm leave
5pm get to berk.
5:30pm ry gets back from work
5:35pm find a movie we want to watch OR just have sex. HA.
blabblahblabhablabhablh

leave by 10.
home by 11

day end.

school starts PROJECT DUE!!!!!!! fuck.

I WANT

unlimited frequent flyer miles

unlimited beach time

a house by the beach

more time with ryry

a credit card that will earn me miles

TK noodles

to be done with this essay

an acceptance letter to berkeley. (not possible)

to fastforward time. no i lied, i just want a peak at my future.

to see daddy

a dog.

word on my new mac so i dont procrastinate anymore.

TUESDAY

tuesdays are the day to blog.

dimps + frecks :]

hmm its been an interesting week- ish.

relationships are an emotional roller coaster ... its a little too soon to be on one but i guess ours is special and super expedited. my mum is still in town, we went to LA from the 4-6 coincidentally it was tiffers 21st bday! party party, dev drove up from san marcos and i also saw devi! it was a nice breather after the whole R drama. letting loose and hanging with the girls. couple new things, i got a new macbook! its pretty cant decide on a name yet but so far max or dexter, or dex for short (thats what ry came up with) it reminds me of two things i really really like. HA. anyway, i flew back from LA on a saturday, i was fucking tired but i think i had called ryan? i dont remember who called who but we were just really fed up with everything and well i decided to drive up there to see him to resolve things. i really need to effing figure out how to private this thing! god dammit. oh well. wutever. i also got a new ipod classic mmm its hot. a new top from zara which is pretty effing cute. im going back to sing sing on the 16th, one day after ry leaves to austin... ugh. its going to be a terrible terrible goodbye i can already feel it in my gut. anyway, thursday my mother is going to cook indonesian food for silas' graduation! which will be quite nice :) ive invited viv and naghmeh to come over! friday!!!! its naghmehs birthday so im pretty excited about that, ry is coming down here! and were staying the night at vivs, then were off to santa cruz on saturday which im super looking forward to! amazing. anyway, i think thats it. mumzy is leaving friday which will be well bittersweet , shes been much better lately. i kind of regret getting her unlimited skype which means she will be able to call me a bunch! ugh she'll be busy once shes back home though. perfecto. must continue writing my paper on the obama effect. ughhh ............ dunzo. passed the fuck out today i dont know why ive been so tired? and omg my period needs to come RIGHT FUCKING NOW!.. internally im sort of freaking out. just a little.

love.  

FUCK

fuck fuck fuck fuck shit fuck .
fuck.
fuck.
ugh
feels. horrible.