Bye Bye Birdie

a change of heart?

el perro del mar.



needing my love cup to be filled.

white sheets

din tai fung. one day ill take ry here..

mmm my white sheets. how ive missed high thread count!

i am turning into a pile of goo. i dont know why but ive lost the desire to party and go wild! the usual doings in singapore. ive been back and in great company but i much prefer having coffee during the day or dinner and drinks at night! none of this club business! a bit lame i know.. ive been meaning to get my ass to the gym or perhaps the track but its weird now that the school kids have started school. i like having the school track all to myself during the schools holidays, no kids in sight. high school is now foreign grounds, they belong to my little brother who by the way is now a FRESHMAN! where has the time gone, this is absolutely ridiculous, the next time i see him he will be taller than me. even now we battle it out and im convinced we are the same height but of course he claims hes taller, him n his puffy hair. ry and i havent been able to talk much lately, ill have to admit that sometimes its scary because technically hes barely started school and already i barely speak to him. this is when i have all the time in the world! although the time difference is in the way its really not all that bad i feel like we catch each other on decent times. it sucks to have to say bye to him and not have my ryan love cup filled. i think thats what im going to call it from now on ( i was watching jon n kate plus 8 and she asks her kids if their love cups are filled! super cute). ive almost forgotten what it was like but i feel like usually im on the computer for hours on end. maybe this will be different, im not all too sure how much i like it. i think i dont but ill try to trick myself into thinking i do. i feel as if we dont talk long enough to have a conversation that is truly fulfilling. its very hi, bye. i hope this will change. not much going on in sticky singapore, i certainly do not miss this humid weather, your whole body gets so sticky and icky. like a hot mist fan blowing in your face constantly... and the mist is made out of apple juice, all sticky and icky. gross. i do enjoy the food. i eat and i eat and i eat! i feel like its all we ever do here, in the past i have ended up loosing weight when im home which is weird.. however, this time i feel as if i will definitely GAIN weight.

oh the glorious food...

sleep time.

home

Il bel far niente.

the beauty of doing nothing.



epa games -- 23rd aug.

FRIDAY

back home in singapore, i havent done much or taken many pictures. my bestie isnt around so i feel lost. i miss her :( , not much is going on in singaling but up with the girls for a pool reunion (i just typed book instead of pool, what type of grandma am i!) got my hair cut as usual with wing, bought a book at borders , the usual, got my eyebrows done, met phil for coffee and tonight will be the first night out. gah. i wish i could drive here so i could just take the car! this is ridic. i wish i had a gps here too but i think people would laugh at me. anywhosits. everyday i wake up still in love with ryan. i guess my prayer to god would be that we fall in love with each other more and more each day, the same prayer i pray for my parents. what id give to still be madly in love with the same man, one that i would love to settle down with right this moment if i could.. i hope we make it through these 2 years. i hope i get to re read this one day and just smile because i could feel it coming.

anyway, im going to steal my dads 450 d and post some pictures.

ew i have this pimple on my head. ugh.

this is the first day of

my long distance.

austin - san diego. i think we'll make it.

i love him.

mmmmmmmmm

less than twenty four hours.

listening to:

Beyoncé's Ego

STATISTICS FAIL

of all the professors in the world i had to pick frank soler. WHY , his textbook is absolutely USELESS! i am one to slack off in class but math textbooks are usually so clear with step by step instructions and color coded equations it was never really a problem for me to catch up! here i am stuck with a black and white useless chunk of paper, he provides us with examples but never explains how he gets the answers ! not to mention barely answers his test questions in the back of the book! what is this nonsense! what book publisher would accept this crap. UGH .. mood : frustrated. i have to re learn everything from youtube which hurts my head because i have to focus so hard. i absolutely hate this shit. WHY!!!!!!! but its okay. i learned how to find a p value on my own today, one step to success only that i have 1 day to learn it all! in any case god willl help me find a way I HOPE. i have faith. i do...... ugh.

the only thing thats keeping me sane is that my lovely boyfriend will be back on the day i finish finals! the 6th. spending the weekend at the hilton, a perfect way to help me forget the misery of statistics. what a waste of time and energy. lets just hope for the best.

also, i bought an ocarina!! its an app on my iphone and i've learned how to play a couple of songs :)

lovely...

SATURDAY

she's got you high and you don't even know yet



lets be productive today karyn.

1) do laundry
2)clean room
3) study stats
4) get this dress