rainy sunday. i fear my blogspot was only a place to express my overflowing love for ry, i've learned that when you have a passion for something you're literally bursting at the seams and oozing out whatever you love infecting whatever it is you touch. lots to do today. read, clean, laundry. watched the movie babies yesterday and omg did it get my biological urges going! to a better week!
my body is in a lull, but my thoughts are always racing. why? not sure i did the right thing, but some days i'm very certain i did. wish i had stayed away for longer, not having anything to do is unhealthy. time to take classes somewhere!
that feeling you get that spreads from you chest into your neck right before you're about the cry and you feel it over and over again. you trace it with the palm of your hand from your chest to your neck again and again. you're holding your neck because you try to push that awful feeling down, i push it down, and when i do, it makes my legs tingle and my heart throb.
why do i feel this way? maybe its the hormones. im scared he doesn't make me happy anymore. my eyes well up just thinking about it.
stuffy noses, puffy eyes, and a can of beer. what a hypocrite i am.