Love Letter

so, it came! and it was the most moving lover letter i have ever received.

the next one is on its way!

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Date and time Status Location Service Area 7/29/2009 7:20 pm Depart Facility Irkutsk, Russian Federation, The 6:58 pm Processed at DHL Location. Irkutsk, Russian Federation, The 6:36 pm Departing origin. Irkutsk, Russian Federation, The 9:28 am Shipment picked up Irkutsk, Russian Federation, The

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spoke to ry yesterday over the phone, its been ages since i've spoken to him! thank god for skype :) just finishing up apps, im a little worried about stats since i have no effing clue as to what is going on in class? the teacher doesnt do much teaching. hopefully i will get a C in the class, thats all i want really. my neck has been super achey lately, i think its because i spend way too much time glued to my computer. oh well who isent nowadays anyway? besides, i practically have to do everything on this dam computer (re learn stats from youtube lectures) , oh i lost my computer charger and im using ryans now but i think its not good for my computer, it gets real hot real fast. grrrrr

TUESDAY

i love these girls.

i wanna do bad things to you....

GOSH TRUE BLOOD!!!!!! awesome... awesome awesome.

comic con was a great and amazing experience this year, how moving, touching, awesome, gosh -- just such an exhilarating experience. im too tired to write about it now but it was great!!!!

hope i get home tomorrow and find ryan's letter. that would be a perfect ending to an amazing weekend!

awaiting a love letter..

hmm im anxious and excited!

2 days till i hear back from my loved one mmmmmmm, so ive been sick and it SUCKS but i guess i feel better, went out for a CUTCO company picnic hahah it was fun took a nap outdoors and had a hot dog and a burger.. first time ive been outside outside in a while.. it felt.. well.. weird - ish. i napped and pretended ry was there to cuddle with me mmm, then i fell asleep while steve played vball with the rest of the knife salesmen, steph was with me and we spoke about jon and kate + 8 (destined to be friends). i cleaned my room yesterday but its still messy. fail. so im going down to sd this weekend for comic con! thank god steve is driving down with me cause i def did not want to do that drive ALONE. shoot me now. our first cousin trip in a long time! super pumped!!! jess n jnet + beach! hopefully itll take my mind off of ryan haha (not likely). my dad sent me a zillion pictures from their beach trip! all my baby cousins are growing upppp :( makes me sad i wasn't there i miss those babiess. grr super jealous. anyway, time to study stats and play rockband! sams back today , met her at mayflower just now with the rest of the "gang". being sick makes me act goofy. mum called today, and for the first time it made me smile to hear from her !! she didnt talk about god she just told me about their trip and i told her i was going to sd and she was completely okay with it! hahaha so strange , mm i love you mumzy, even though she is crazy at times.. i guess it runs in the family. she told me not to talk so much! hahahaha no1 can recognize my voice its kind of funny. matt barnes is now on orlando magic for 2 years, my loyalty to the warriors MAY sway.

ROCKBAND & LUNA LOVEGOOD

Today i was "Mothership Q", my favorite song to rock out to was :

Tell Me Baby whats your story
where you come from
and where you wanna go next time
tell me lover are you lonely
the thing we need is never all that hard to find
tell me baby whats your story
where do you come from
and where you wanna go next time
your so lovely are you lonely
i given up on the innocence you left behind

by Red Hot Chilli Peppers.. mm

it's amazing how much better i feel after rockband. i believe in medical miracles. or maybe im just drugged up and happy.

----
Luna Lovegood



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mm baby, i'm so into you. its sickening.

HOT n BOTHERED

so ry has been away in beijing. this familiar feeling of missing, jealously, frustration and dissatisfaction creeped back into me. ahh, long distance it is. this time my end isen't all too interesting and to think i use to do this all the time! im feeling somewhat reluctant and almost put down. it also doesn't help that im sick and almost voiceless that puts me in an ultra cranky mood. but thank god for sweet friends that put up with my cranky whiney self. so who knows when i'll hear from him again ? soon he'll be on a train somewhere someplace and its not even been a week with well, shitty but present internet connection. anyway so my point is i don't know why i put myself through this i use to be great at it but i think getting back into it and knowing what its like is just the most discouraging thing. why! someone needs to invent cheap efficient fast travel now! airplanes are overrated. i hate feeling jealous but i suppose its only natural when your precious is out and about having fun with "very respectable" females who you dont know? till 8 in the morning i may add. hmm, he says "you cant really blame her". steve says i need to grow up, but he agrees with me and understands why i got so flustered getting my fucking panties all up in a bunch. if i want to start making this work out for me i need to stop being my jealous self, nobody is perfect. but why this flaw,i feel like im always stuck in this long distance cycle ... story of my life. when are things going to change for me? back to the bed, volleyball was not a good idea. time for pho! i feel SO SHITTY. fuck this sickness.

snot control its getting lighter.

mmm over it. so over it.

SUMMER COLD

i should of read this before i decided to get sick.

snot control

CONGESTED!

mmmmm my nose is all clogged up and i'm laying here in my sea of tissue. lovely way to start and end a day i suppose (not). today it was pams birthday - dinner at chillis haha kira's employee 50 percent discount made me gluttonous mm triple cheese bacon burgur with jalapeno ranch sauce and crispy onion strings .......... delicious. then we chilled at reeds, familiar faces and beer was nice and comforting.

h1n1 -- i hope i dont have it. thank god for tylenol night time and theraflu and ny quil. mmmm drugged up and feeling quite decent. all i need is my babe to curl up with.

things i learned today :

dont smoke while youre sick.
dont drink while youre sick.
do spend time in bed.

want:



need:


goodnighters.

bye bye babers, come back soon.

Boyfriend - less and sad. 3 weeks sans ryry. blerh. so i decided while hes away i'll perfect the blog and make it something id like to remember and look at and pretty up. back in the day i use to be a xanga layout pro so ill get blogspot under my belt too. mm hes on his way to beijing and i haven't asked him whether i could use his photos but i will. and sort of already started.. i need something to do being boyfriend less is sort of boring. ill write more later but now the pretty - ing begins

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july 9 - 12th.

MONDAY

im in love.

TUESDAY

why why why why why why why why why.......

oh god. uncomfortable.

besides that, i had a really great independence day weekend, of course i spent it with my chemist. drove to berkeley on thursday ... im not all too sure what we did that day, we stayed home and cuddled most likely, ry went to berkeley bowl to get foodies. mashers, smoked salmon, (bad asian green tea icecream), sake, and champagne. i really dont remember what we did that night..did we make mash potatoes? im not even too sure? then it was july fourth! we had a great morning together, mimosas and bacon and eggs and queso! mmmmm wonderful. we went to point reyes.. unfortunatelyyyy it was super shitty weather! ugh well thats a lie, it was a great day but we just chose the wrong cold beach with dieing animals on it. poor sealion cubs were emaciated and sick :( made me sad. we got into a little argument on the way back from point reyes which was not nice but i guess it lead to better things. this weekend was the weekend i told ryan i love him.. or i was suppose to tell him and totally chickened out! and then he eneded up saying it.. we played the "i have to tell you a story" game haha... apparently when i was drunk i gave it away pretty much. good job karyn. typical. anyway, its a great feeling to be able to say it to someone again and completely mean it mmm its nice. we then went to pier 39 to watch the fireworks at the museum and took more photobooth pictures(as shown)! mmmmmm adorable, we met up with char and some of her friends, dean was there too. so i got to spend another night with ry. sunday! asian church day (believe it or not hes the first boyfriend ive gone to church with!) it was nice, then we had sushi for lunch. so anyway, my bits were sore that weekend and turns out i have something! which im not entirely sure yet... im going to PP tmrw! ughhhhh this totally sucks balls. wish it would go away, and worst thing is i think i may of given it to RY! OMG .. omg i may die of embarrasment. holy jesus. and also. i think he may ask his mom about it.. i mean oh my god. i understand why he would want to but i just really wish he didnt have to. this sucks. i want to know what i have, i want to know what he has and i want it to GO awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. sick. so sick. is this some sort of punishment? i have no idea. i guess it cant always be dandy.