TUESDAY

why why why why why why why why why.......

oh god. uncomfortable.

besides that, i had a really great independence day weekend, of course i spent it with my chemist. drove to berkeley on thursday ... im not all too sure what we did that day, we stayed home and cuddled most likely, ry went to berkeley bowl to get foodies. mashers, smoked salmon, (bad asian green tea icecream), sake, and champagne. i really dont remember what we did that night..did we make mash potatoes? im not even too sure? then it was july fourth! we had a great morning together, mimosas and bacon and eggs and queso! mmmmm wonderful. we went to point reyes.. unfortunatelyyyy it was super shitty weather! ugh well thats a lie, it was a great day but we just chose the wrong cold beach with dieing animals on it. poor sealion cubs were emaciated and sick :( made me sad. we got into a little argument on the way back from point reyes which was not nice but i guess it lead to better things. this weekend was the weekend i told ryan i love him.. or i was suppose to tell him and totally chickened out! and then he eneded up saying it.. we played the "i have to tell you a story" game haha... apparently when i was drunk i gave it away pretty much. good job karyn. typical. anyway, its a great feeling to be able to say it to someone again and completely mean it mmm its nice. we then went to pier 39 to watch the fireworks at the museum and took more photobooth pictures(as shown)! mmmmmm adorable, we met up with char and some of her friends, dean was there too. so i got to spend another night with ry. sunday! asian church day (believe it or not hes the first boyfriend ive gone to church with!) it was nice, then we had sushi for lunch. so anyway, my bits were sore that weekend and turns out i have something! which im not entirely sure yet... im going to PP tmrw! ughhhhh this totally sucks balls. wish it would go away, and worst thing is i think i may of given it to RY! OMG .. omg i may die of embarrasment. holy jesus. and also. i think he may ask his mom about it.. i mean oh my god. i understand why he would want to but i just really wish he didnt have to. this sucks. i want to know what i have, i want to know what he has and i want it to GO awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. sick. so sick. is this some sort of punishment? i have no idea. i guess it cant always be dandy.